I'm thinking one of the reasons that particular verse resonated with me at that time is because I was "weary", from trying to do it all. I thought I had to be all things to all people. I rarely said "no" to anyone. My calendar was hard to decipher some days. I tried to live up to other peoples expectations of me. One day, I heard myself say to someone else. "You need to slow down. I think you are so tired because you are putting so many other people before your own needs". Seriously!?
And over the next few months, I heard that same sentiment from other people, directed at me. I needed to slow down? Have you seen my calendar? How do I do that?
A friend called one day, sharing some pretty difficult life issues she was struggling with. While we were on the phone, I picked up my Bible, hoping to find some inspiration to share with her. I started to flip through the pages when it fell open. And for whatever reason, my eyes fell on Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you, "declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. We hung up, but I held on to that verse.
I remember sitting there that day, tears filled my eyes. I asked myself, when did I let go of trusting the Lord for my plans? My life? I was so busy trying to do what I thought everyone wanted me to do, that I had stopped listening to that still small voice.
By late afternoon, I had written several letters expressing my regret that I could no longer be involved with that organization. As I walked to the mailbox my heart was heavy. Am I doing what you really want me to do Lord? I placed the letters in the mailbox, raised the flag, and walked back into the house. I felt so much relief.
Today at times my life (and calendar) are still hectic. However, I believe I am truly where the Lord wants me to be.
And that's a good feeling...
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