I slid across the backseat of my girlfriends Mother's car. We were headed to band practice or 4-H, I'm not really sure where we were going. My girlfriend sat in the front seat with her Mother and barely spoke to me. I remember my thirteen or fourteen year old brain thinking, "why is she mad at me?"
Finally her Mother spoke up and said, "she suffers with insomnia".
Oh my goodness, I remember thinking, is she going to die?
Why didn't she just say, "she can't sleep?"
Lately I've been suffering with insomnia.
I have lots on my plate right now. A speaking engagement next week, and in a few weeks after that I am the keynote speaker at a three day retreat. So many nights I glance at the clock and it's 2:45, and I'm thinking, sure wish I could fall asleep Lord.
In the past the Lord and I have done lots of work in the middle of the night. But the past few nights, I think He's been trying to sleep (we all know He doesn't really sleep) and reminding me to do the same. He's been telling me, you need to sleep. Stop trying to figure everything out yourself.
But Lord, you know that's what I do.....try to figure things out.
I wasn't surprised after another sleepless night He led me to this verse in Psalm. Psalm 4:8 In peace I will both lie down and sleep; for thou alone O Lord, makest me dwell in safety.
I read in Sarah Young's Jesus Calling, While you wait in My Presence, I do My best work within you transforming you by the renewing of your mind.
My mind can't be renewed if I've had no sleep.
I hear you Lord.
And by the way, last night I slept like a baby while the Lord took care of all the "plans".
Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
I'm glad He has it all figured out.
I just need to rest now and watch His glorious plan unfold.